Welcome or welcome back to another post on the MCD blog. I am your host Manyi. First things first, let’s clap it up for ONE YEAR of MCD on WordPress!
I started my blog on the free Google application Blogger in April 2019, and one year ago in November 2019 I got my own big girl website. I just remembered this anniversary because I got an unexpected charge on my bank account. My hosting (the foundation on which you build a website) and my domain (the fact that I own the website manyicarpediem.com) auto-renewed without my knowledge, and that fee was HEFTY so support your girl by re-reading another blog post after this. Also, make sure to check out the blog on desktop if you always check on your phone or tablet.
Today’s topic stems from the last post’s topic, productivity. If you haven’t read that one, take a second to read it, then I’ll meet you back here.
So, today let’s talk about one of my bad habits.
I am always in a rush.
I’m in a rush to drive to work in the morning because it takes about 20 minutes to get there on I-94 but I leave my house 5 minutes late and *respectfully* drive 20mph over the speed limit to clock in on time.
If the drive-thru line at Starbucks is too long for my comfort, I will literally back up and reverse out of the line and drive to one of two other Starbucks near me. Starbucks in my neighborhood Target is never busy.
Even when I have nowhere to be, I grow impatient when I have to wait in line at the bank, or walk around someone that’s too slow on campus, or when the elevator takes too long to arrive.
I guess you can say I’m impatient.
But why?
I started noticing this was a problem when I realized I never enjoy the music on my drive to work because I’m focused on the clock.
As I’m typing this, I realize that I do this in every aspect of my life. I started planning for post-grad during my sophomore year of college. Some people haven’t even declared a major yet and I was already writing my next chapter.
I have a photo album of furniture and home decor for my first big girl apartment when I move out next year….after graduation. I’m haven’t even registered for my last semester’s classes yet and I already have my future living room planned out to the last detail!
Typically, I try to find another source to mention in my posts, but today I think my personal experience is enough evidence. Maybe it is a generation thing, maybe it’s capitalism, maybe it’s Maybelline, I don’t fucking know, but I and many young people live life like an Energizer bunny.
It’s not like rushing to work or walking really fast will really get me to my dreams faster. I think it’s just the pressure and expectation to be high-functioning that’s started bleeding into my everyday activities.
Carpe Diem means seize the day, yeah yeah, but what are you really getting out of your day when you live at 100mph?
It’s been a tough unlearning process, but I’m starting this journey by driving and walking slower. Taking the time to find the right song for the vibes, noticing the city around me as I go, listening to the crunch of the leaves underneath my feet, and smelling the grease in the air from the nearby fast-food chain. Being fully present in the moment instead of thinking where I could or should be in the next minute.
This post is to show what living each day to the fullest extent is and isn’t. Building Rome in a day is dope, but I’m finally getting to a place where I’ll sleep just as well if I only get one street done.
Carpe Diem Challenge: Be honest with yourself: what’s a bad habit you need to break?